A Closed Door

Well, my dr. visit this morning closed a door that I was sure we were about to walk through. I met with a very kind dr. who gently told me that even though I am completely healthy, I am too heavy for them to help me with my infertilty issues. I am so sad and humbled.

Holy and Most Precious Father,
Only you know where this road will lead. Father, how do I continue to go on? Oh, preciuos Father, I want to raise your child!! I want to be a mother to one of your precious little souls. I don't even have to have more...just one. Why is it, Lord, that so many people can easily get pregnant (even those who don't want babies), and I can't. Oh, sweet Father, hold my broken heart and help me to find joy. I need joy, Lord. I need you, Lord! Oh, how I love you so!

Amen!

A New Chapter!

Well, Monday at 7 am I am going to a infertility specialist. Dr. Wilson referred me to Dr. Doody. I am excited, but extremely nervous. I have no idea how we are going to finance this, but I am praying that my insurance will cover more than I am thinking. I know we will have some out of pocket costs, but I know it is so worth it.

Please continue to pray that God's hand will guide us, and that we will not be following our own selfish desires.

The Wait is On!!!

Holy and Most Precious Lord,
As I enter this two week wait, please give me the peace of mind that I am in your hands. This body is in your hand. I long to spend time in your presence and know that your plan is perfect and no matter what we do...it is up to you. I thank you that you have a plan. I thank you that when it is time, we will be able to raise your child to love and honor you. What a joy that will be!!!

Hold me, Lord! I need you!
Amen!


Well, as you can see from my heart cry, I have ovulated yet again (Praise God!) on the clomid. I am so thankful that the meds are working and making my body respond correctly. However, the two weeks that I have to wait to test almost drive me crazy. The rest of the time, I am doing something...taking meds...eating/drinking more soy..etc... In the tww, it is just a time of wait. It is a blessing. BUT it is also a time of wonder, questions, doubts, etc. If you are praying for Baby Nabors, please pray for his/her mom and dad during the next two weeks. I want to be full of scripture and prayer instead of wonder and doubt.

All Clear!!

I had my HSG test done yesterday. Let me say, the actual process wasn't so bad...just mild pinching. However, is has been almost 24 hours later and I am still having severe cramping. I feel like I have done a thousand crunches. However, I don't get the effect of 1000 crunches. LOL!!

Anyway, the test went great. My tubes are open and ready for an egg to travel down them. The Radiologist let me look at it. It was very interesting. Praises to God!!! I am so thankful!!

So, we are going to try clomid for a few more months, and then Dr. Wilson is going to send me to a specialist if I am not pregnant yet.

Thanks for the prayers and well wishes. I am blessed to know that my tubes are okay. Even through the pain that I am feeling now...I can feel God's power and grace flowing down on me!!