In A Process...

I am trying to decide what to do with this blog. I have tried to highlight important things happening in my world, but there aren't any. It is the same day after day...nothing changes. So, I have really been praying about my reason for being here. Actually, I have been praying about my reason for being anywhere. It has been another summer of discovery.

I love the summer. I feel so empowered to work on myself and the world around me. During the school year, I feel so distracted and scattered. When summer hits, I really get the chance to stop, refocus (or try to) and put in great effort to make me better.

So, who am I today:

1.) I am a princess with a mighty King!

2.) I a wife who needs to daily stay in scripture to accept my mission

3.) I am a sister who is blessed

4.) I am a grateful daughter and granddaughter

5.) I am an aunt who is in love with my nephews

All of these are great things, but honestly, I am a broken woman with longings that I have to daily take to my King because without Him, I can not even get up out of bed.

However, I am not where I thought I would be at 35. My dream when I was growing up was to be an architect in a big city, living in a fancy apartment, and I did not want to have children. I blew that one with bad choices in college and the inability to compete in the world of architecture. (I wasn't as good as I wanted to be.)

Then, my dream started to change. As I started working as a teacher, I started dreaming of a husband, a house and a family. Some of that came true, and some of that hasn't. Reflection is a good thing.

What about you? Where did you see yourself?